One step ahead

Deep in my mind
There is a calling
There is a need
A pervasive need
For a logical universe
One that makes sense
But the real universe is always
One step beyond logic
One step beyond comprehension
One step ahead of me
And I am trying hard
To catch up to speed
To get it under my control
To be able to predict
What comes next
To be able to foresee and alter
Any kind of darkness
Will i succeed?
Will i surrender?