Sometimes

Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night

Just to listen to the silence around me.

Sometimes I remember the past and cry

Just because.

Sometimes I keep walking wherever the road leads me

Just to get lost.

Sometimes I am not nice to anybody

Just to feel bitter

Sometimes close my eyes tight

Just hoping that ‘this too shall pass’

Sometimes I do these things

And sometimes I don’t.

Fire

There was a fire burning
She saw it this time
She saw it after a while
It burnt ferociously
Passionately
She was scared
She was apprehensive
She felt the heat
It touched her
She started to enjoy it
She felt pleasure in it
She fed it
She made it even more fierce
She allowed it to take over
She gave in
She let it spread
She burnt with it
The fire within her
She saw it this time.

Oh Love

This must be love

This must be why it’s blissful

Like the first drop of rain

After a hot summer

An early morning text

“Have a good day!”

The perfect stroke of paint

On a new canvas

Being swept off your feet

“Gosh! You’re a feather”

Your playlist on shuffle

That plays all your favourite songs

Long hours of video call

"Aren't you the cutest!”

Finding money in your pockets

Oh! the joy of being rich!

Sifting through pictures

“Aren’t we the cutest!?”                

The delicious smell of dinner

As you enter home after a long day

Getting drunk on beer

“I don’t know why I love you, but I do so much!”

Words fail to convey

What exactly I feel about love

But if this is what it feels like

I’d bask in it forever!

I, Me, Myself

It's all about me
What I like
What I love
What I hate
What I despise
Everything
Every bloody thing
Why shouldn't it be?
I fend for myself
I spend for myself
I give for my redemption
I live for my selfish reason
I, Me, Myself.

A New Beginning

The missing puzzle
That fits into place
The incomplete sentence
That's now complete
The lonely hand
That found someone to hold onto
The parched lip
That's now wet with a kiss
If only i could tell you
What you mean to me
If only i could tell you
How easy it's been
To talk, to walk, to adore, to love
To be sure that you are the one
But all i can muster
Is a modest thank you
For being who you are
For coming into my life
For making me believe
That life could really be so simple.

The end

The streets are crowded
So is my mind
My thoughts are
Happy, sad, confused
Oh wait
Right now, it's blank
Damn,
Not anymore
A thought just raced to that space
Like the cab that occupies every inch
On the busy, crowded street
Won't think. No. Not anymore
Do what I please
Like that gigantic bus
That manoeuvres it's way
On the tiny, crowded street.
Let me distract myself
Listen to some music
Bury the voices in my head
Like that lonely pedestrian
With his headphones
On the crazy, crowded street
With absolutely no idea about
Those crazy drivers honking
Ah, the thoughts that
Make their way into my head
Ok. Shhh! Stay quiet.
Peace. Yes, it's white
It's the end.

One step ahead

Deep in my mind
There is a calling
There is a need
A pervasive need
For a logical universe
One that makes sense
But the real universe is always
One step beyond logic
One step beyond comprehension
One step ahead of me
And I am trying hard
To catch up to speed
To get it under my control
To be able to predict
What comes next
To be able to foresee and alter
Any kind of darkness
Will i succeed?
Will i surrender?

One last time...

One last time
Give me a chance
To talk my heart out to you
One last time
Hold my hands
And look into my eyes in silence
One last time
Tickle me hard
So I cry out laughing
One last time
Hug me, kiss me,
Make sweet love to me
One last time
Tell me we're alright
Tell me we'll get past this
One last time
Say you love me
Say you can't live without me
Just... One last time...

Inexplicable

Inexplicable.
Let down.
But why?
No commitments made.
No love exchanged.
Just the idea of it.
The idea of love...
The idea of being loved...
A better tomorrow.
An independent life.
A chance
To get away
From the life I am living,
From the excuse of freedom I cherish
From not being able to afford
A life that I imagine.
Disappointed, yes.
But, it doesn't change
The way I look at life
It doesn't take away hope.
The feeling is just
Inexplicable

No Regrets

I could trade all my tomorrows

For just one yesterday

The first time I went on a holiday

Or may be, my first flight

My first day at high school

Oh wait; it could be my first crush

A lot of firsts,

A lot of memories

It all feels like a blur,

Yet crystal clear!

Younger, happier and carefree

No conventions, no restrictions

All that mattered was

A well fed stomach

And lots of time to play

I guess I am holding on to yesterday
Far, far too long.

And, as much as I say I don’t,

I want to do over

Just a little bit!