Inexplicable

Inexplicable.
Let down.
But why?
No commitments made.
No love exchanged.
Just the idea of it.
The idea of love...
The idea of being loved...
A better tomorrow.
An independent life.
A chance
To get away
From the life I am living,
From the excuse of freedom I cherish
From not being able to afford
A life that I imagine.
Disappointed, yes.
But, it doesn't change
The way I look at life
It doesn't take away hope.
The feeling is just
Inexplicable